Popular podcast host Joe Rogan posted a video to social media early Saturday morning addressing past use of the N-word in “The Joe Rogan Experience” episodes.

The host empathized that he never used the word to try to be “racist,” but was often quoting someone else, or generally speaking of the uniqueness of the word.

At the start of the post, Rogan said he has seen a video compilation of him using the word, which he said was “out of context,” adding that this is the “most regretful and shameful thing I’ve ever had to talk about.”